August '17 Spotify Playlist

1 September 2017



August's over,
and I still haven't kept my promise of posting these playlists on time.

August has been been great, music-wise. Declan McKenna released his first album, I finally got to have a good listen to Lana Del Rey's 'Lust For Life' and I found out that Selena Gomez's 'comeback' is more than promising. 

Due to my love for playlist-making, and the fact that I'm studying abroad for a year next year and throwing a goodbye party,  august has also been taken up by creating the perfect party playlist. Which I might share later, when it's party-tested and party approved. 
I decided to throw an early 2000s themed party. The early 2000s being a goldmine both fashion- and music-wise has kept me busy for a fair amount of time.
Long story short, I've been wearing a Juicy Couture tracksuit around the house and rediscovered old Fall Out Boy music.

That aside, here are my musical companions for August.





x,
Alex

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x,
Alex

July '17 Spotify Playlist

2 August 2017



I went to a music festival at the beginning of the month and have been listening to the same couple of songs over and over again just to be brought back to the good festival vibes.
Not the most inventive or elaborate playlist I've ever posted, but one that definitely got a lot of love and listens this month.

Enjoy!


x,
Alex

Unpublished III



It's not because it doesn't fit into my Instagram theme that it shouldn't be published.




June '17 Spotify Playlist

13 July 2017

It's really, really, really late, but I didn't want to miss out on a playlist, so let's just ignore the post date, shall we?

June was a month of looking forward to things, the end of finals, summer and last, but not least, music festivals.
So here's a combination of music that will calm you down and inject you with positive vibes.




x,
Alex

May '17 Spotify Playlist

13 June 2017


Better late than never, right?

I usually post my playlists for a certain month at the end of that month, which doesn't really make sense, considering naming the playlist after the month that people will actually be listening to it makes way more sense. So that's what I'm going to try and do from now on.
And real talk, I need to find a better visual representation for my playlists than my current shitty Canva 'collages'. But hey, blogging is a process of growth so things will get better, somehow, someday. 

That being said let's move on the the actual playlist.
Good weather makes me happy, and we've had a lot of it. And it didn't just kinda 'lift me up', I've felt like a straight up ray of sunshine during the whole of May and this playlist sure reflects that. 
Everything's a bit softer, happier and on average 23% less depressing than previous playlists. 

This is the part where I initially wrote some kind of apology for the amount of Harry Styles songs in the playlist, but then I realised that's not something I should apologise for. Your taste in music or any kind of cultural consumption or self expression is not something you should be ashamed of, or apologise for, ever, EVER.
When you see people enjoy or do certain things that make them happy and don't harm you, leave them be. There's absolutely nothing cool about shaming people for liking things that are too popular, obscure or basic. If certain music makes certain people happy let them be happy.
If you find joy in listening to a certain artist, you wan't the whole world to experience that warm, fuzzy feeling as well, no? I don't see the point to people taking pride in listening to artists that are unknown and wanting them to stay that way. If you truly like that artist and look up to them in some way you'd want them to have ambition and get somewhere with their music, right? And if that music makes you happy you want nothing more than for as many people as possible to experience the positive vibes you get from that music as well, don't you? But hey, that's just my opinion.

Enough ranting, here's the playlist.




x,
Alex

Things to do, when you don't know what to do

7 June 2017


You know those times where you feel lost and alone, and you don't really know what to do or what you want in life? Yeah, you're not alone. And here are the things that help me, personally, through times like that.
Hope it helps some of you.

1. Get over yourself

Just kidding, don't do that, that's not a thing. Remember that.

2. Try to think about what you want as an individual 

I want to emphasise the 'what you want' part here. Not what you think you should want, what other people tell you you want or what your environment wants you to want. Try to filter out all pressure from outside and look at what you want for yourself. This is obviously easier said than done. But at least try to do some things just for yourself. Even if it's something small like buying flowers or doing some yoga. 
Sometimes I find myself overwhelmed by the amount of things I have to do, and oftentimes I realise they're things I don't really want to do, but I feel like I have to do. It's great that your helping your friends, parents, neighbours, etc., but learn to see when you need help, and make time to help yourself. Taking even as little as 30 minutes a day to do something just for yourself doesn't make you a bad person. 
And if you're not happy with the future you see ahead of you, do everything in your power to change it, because in the end you're the only person truly in control of your life and your future. 

3. No one's perfect

So you failed a test, final, semester or school in general. Sometimes you make mistakes, everyone does, even though it might not feel like it at times.
Obviously mistakes have repercussions, but most of them are temporary, and even if they're not, you can't let them get the best of you, so stop beating yourself up over them. You can't change things that happened in the past, you can just learn from them and try to live with them. 
So go ahead, make mistakes, you're only human after all.



4. Remember the only thing standing between you and what you want is yourself,
and a lot of other things probably, but you catch my drift 

Have you ever been in the situation where you want something, but you're not completely sure if you're going to succeed, so you just don't try? Stop doing that.
Self sabotaging is a very common and normal thing. Our brain is programmed to averse loss, rather than seek gains (this is actually true). But once you make yourself aware of this you can try and work around it. Being afraid to fail is normal, but trying to be stronger than that fear can sometimes lead to great things.

6. Set a goal and work towards it

If you feel like you're not progressing in any kind of way, set a goal that you can work towards. This can be as big or small as you want. I am currently working towards studying abroad. This goal that I have put out for myself in the future gives me something tangible to work towards, a motivation. And of course having something to work towards doesn't make the road less bumpy, but they make the bumps more bearable, and even worth it in a way. Sometimes I feel like I'm not going anywhere and I don't really know why I'm doing what I'm doing, but having some kind of finish line, makes everything more worthwhile, for me personally. 

5. Create some kind of structure

When I feel overwhelmed and powerless, I try to regain my sense of control by creating structure. Sounds a bit abstract, but for me this implies, filling in my calendar and planning the weeks ahead. This way I feel like I know what's coming and this gives me some kind of inner peace. For you this might mean cleaning your room, reorganising your desk, starting a new hobby, etc. Just look for something that makes you feel like you have control over your life, because you do.



7. Think about what makes you, you, and learn to love those things

I sometimes feel lost thinking about who I am or who I'm supposed to be. Do I do certain things because that's who I am, or because that's what I think I should do to answer to some kind of pressure I feel.
I'm awkward, like 'out there clothes' and don't like to open up to people. Things I often feel I have to change, but I know I don't. Forcing myself to open up to people, trying to look socially competent and dressing 'like I'm supposed to dress', isn't going to make me a better person, in contrary. The person you're the best at being, is yourself, so just be that, or at least try your very best.
I sometimes, and I know I'm not alone at this, lose myself in what I'm trying to be instead of just being myself. Constantly overthinking what other people think about you and how you should behave is draining, just shamelessly being yourself is a lot easier, trust me. And I must admit that I haven't mastered this myself either. Everyone gets insecure and feels like they need to change themselves in some way to conform to some kind of standard, and that's normal. But try to not give a shit from time to time, it's a truly amazing feeling.

8. Be nice to people

Sometimes when you feel bad, you radiate that towards your environment, which is normal, but trying to be nice and talking to people about what's bugging you actually helps an awful lot more. 
I used to be the bitter person that translated their insecurities into anger, which didn't really get me anywhere to be honest. 
Trying to be nice to people, actually makes you feel good, because when you give positivity, you oftentimes get positivity back. This in no way means that you have to be permanently happy and hide the way you feel because that's not how it works, but don't translate whatever your feeling into anger towards people who have nothing to do with it either. Talk to them instead.
Even when people are aggressive or disproportionately mean to you, try to be the bigger person. Put yourself in their position and try to understand why they'd behave the way they do, and try to help or leave their behaviour behind you.

9. Remember it's okay, not to be okay

You know how sometimes you'll tell people about something you're going through and they just react with 'Well, if that's tough on you wait until real life hits you.'.
Reality flash to those people, you're not helping, at all. And advice to for the people who've ever received that reaction, don't be bothered by it. Sure, some situations might call for some 'tough love', but most of them don't, most definitely not when they're mental health issues.
You might feel like you have to be happy and on top of everything all the time, but that's just not how life works. 




This is not a solution for life, just some tips to make the little things that make the big things seem even harder more bearable. This is not going to help you through losing a relative, your parents' divorce or whatever bad situation you might be dealing with at the moment, but I hope it can at least bring you some peace in a way.


x,
Alex








April '17 Spotify Playlist

4 May 2017



Here's May for ya.

Going through my Spotify recently I noticed I've been making these every month for almost 2 years now. That feels like such a long time. I then also proceeded to go through every single playlist, all 21 of them.
It was funny to see how my music taste has evolved, but essentially, is still the same. I've discovered quite a bit of new music over the past 2 years and I learned to dig deeper in my search for new music, but every playlist still evolves around a handful of 'core' artist that define my taste in music.

Enough general information. This months playlist is a feel good playlist, no overly depressing or down songs, just a good accumulation of good vibes. 





x,
Alex

Red and Zebra

1 May 2017
I think I'm gonna add some life update kinda things to this post.
Let me know if I get too cringy at any point, will ya?

So first of, the pictures below. This outfit is basically my uniform.
The leopard print and biker jacket give it an 'edge' (kinda hate that word, but you catch my drift) and the lace up heels give it a fun 'girly' touch (also hate that word, will work on expanding my English blogging vocabulary sometime in the future). The combination of the above with mom jeans makes for a very comfortable combination. 

So, some life things.
It's a kinda busy/stressful period considering exams are soon, deadlines are piling up and the Erasmus pressure is on. I got lucky this period and only have 4 exams (compared to 8 last period), but the fact that every mark gets me closer to Erasmus or removes me further from it adds an extra edge to every piece of schoolwork I deliver. 
I'm planning to go on Erasmus to Warsaw next year, for a whole year, but that requires me to pass every subject this year, which isn't too self-evident in Belgian uni culture. Combining the school pressure with looking for a place to live, planning the trip there etc. knowing that failing 1 class could possibly mean having to cancel everything creates a quite a bit of stress. 
But hey, nothing's impossible so I'm just going for it, keeping in mind that things might not go exactly as I want them to. A healthy attitude if I say so myself.

Apart from that I've also been experimenting with Instagram and blogging quite a bit.
I've gone through a variety Instagram fases ranging from posting whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted to sticking to a very defined theme that required specific colors and editing. At this point I think I'm somewhere in the middle, I want everything to kinda fit together and I delete things that break my feed from time to time, but there's room for spontaneous pictures and all kinds of settings.
As far as blogging goes, I'm still not quite sure what to do and how to do it, so I just post what I feel like whenever I feel like it. I might keep things this way and keep this as a no pressure platform that's an extension of my Instagram and a musical outlet.
Let me know what you think!














Here's one in color for outfit references, but real talk, everything's better in black and white.

Top - Bershka
Jacket - H&M
Jeans - Bershka
Shoes - Bershka

None of the above are linked, due to the fact that everything I'm wearing is relatively old.
I would apologise, but then again, I don't buy new clothes every week.
 Enjoy the outfit inspo!

Pics by Kawtar 

x,
Alex



Off the shoulder pt. I

9 April 2017

Thank god off the shoulder tops are still a thing.

The 'pt. I' thing might make you think there's a second part coming soon, but I don't really know if it is. I'm pretty sure that I'm going to make some kind of off the shoulder top blogpost in the future and will probably not have inspiration for a title. The title is just me saving my future self.
Considering this off the shoulder top is basically my uniform, I couldn't decide on one outfit, so here's two.
The first (I) one is more of a day to day look that I upped a bit with some statement earrings (no worries, they're not as heavy as they look). Combined with some pink Chloé-esque sandals it's a super comfortable, casual outfit.
The second (II) outfit is a more formal, classic look, that you could wear to college, work, meetings, whatever you want. It's fairly neutral which makes it perfect for serving multiple purposes.

Enjoy!


I.



Unpublished II

3 April 2017

My Instagram has a theme know (kinda).
Which means a lot more unpublished pictures and deleted pictures, and for some reason I think it's a good idea to throw these into a blogpost. I have no clue how to introduce these kind of posts because there is no consistency to the images whatsoever, it's pure chaos.
Enjoy the chaos.


Faux fur & Red Boots

Outfit post nr. II

Improvement has been made and every picture is at least 7,9% less awkward than the last outfit post.
At this pace you'll get a decent outfit posts in about a year, woohoo, *that confetti party emoji*.

We've had some very sunny days the last couple of weeks, but I am in no way ready to part with
faux fur. So I basically bought a faux fur jacket from the kids section at Primark, that is so tiny it looks cropped when I wear it, and pretend it's spring appropriate. #lifehack

March '17 Spotify Playlist

2 April 2017

Well, March was fun.

The sun's out and that calls for positive, summery vibes and grime, that too, for some reason.







x,
Alex

February '17 Spotify Playlist

6 March 2017
I'm late.

We're well in to March, but I couldn't deal the idea of missing a monthly playlist. This one had a general 'woohoo' exams are done, let's go wild vibe to it.





x,
Alex

Current music favourites

5 March 2017
Music is like, a pretty big deal to me.

It's what wakes me up in the morning, gets me going during the day and makes me fall asleep at night. It's my shoulder to cry on and my partner in crime. Music and the people behind it make life so much better, hence why they mean a big deal to me. 
For the longest time I've had an on/off outsider status, as fashion changed so did people's opinion on me. This has not only thought me to stick to my personal style and stay true to myself, but has also caused me to look for motivation in music rather than in other people.
Nothing can put a smile on my face or make me cry like music does. Nothing can comfort me or make me feel like everything's alright like music does. It's a necessity.

Long story short, I'm a professional fangirl in a loving relationship with her Spotify subscription.

My current partners in crime:

1. Blossoms


Unpublished Miami

19 February 2017


A lot of good looking buildings and street art.


January '17 Spotify Playlist

13 February 2017


    Soundtrack to my January study breakdown, with just a hint of the end is near.
Perfect for: staring out the window melancholically and underwear mirror dancing.






x,
Alex

28/12/16

8 January 2017
I plan on getting better at this.


December '16 Spotify Playlist


Songs to accompany your pre-exam breakdown, with just a hint of christmas.





x,
Alex

Unpublished I

5 December 2016



30/11/16

November '16 Spotify Playlist

3 December 2016
I made a mostly non depressing playlist,
that helps you get shit done,
and makes casually walking down the street feel about 13,7% cooler.

About half of the playlist makes you feel as if you've just walked into a generic indie rock party and the other half is a mix between songs with a vintage edge, new indie rock that you won't usually hear at generic indie rock parties and a couple of ridiculously depressing songs, no playlist is complete without.





x,
Alex

October '16 Spotify Playlist

8 November 2016


October has been ridiculously busy,
but being on the go a lot meant a desperate need for new music.
In between classes, group-assignment-meeting, youth council meetings and the occasional party, there is time that needs to be filled up with music. Due to the versatility of my activities this month this playlist is a complete mess. You might find yourself listening to 'Beggin for thread' by Banks followed by 'Affection' by Cigarettes After Sex.
But hey, if emotional rollercoasters are your thing (they're definitely mine),
Enjoy.




x,
Alex